you have some very beautiful stuff in here..
and you have amazing skills...


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I not the wizard.

I doubt you'll ever read this, or even if you do, you'll never understand.

Arin will do his " Ah. Bullshit. I don't believe it. I'm better off alone. " act.

I looked back on all of this. And it made me remember the times we spent fighting over stupid shit. Back when we hung out after school enjoying each other's company.

All great moments of my life right until that day you shunned me from your world, and cast me out back into my old life that I had before you came and changed everything.

And maybe in the back of my mind, I know I deserved it and everything I got. Maybe I deserved to be treated like a fucking dog because I smoked a cigarette, and made up a stupid lie. Maybe I deserved the torment, and the hatred that you spewed at me because I made a mistake.

Arin. Because of what you've turned into, you wont even try to comprehend what i'm saying. You've changed so much. And through all of what has happened to us, I just see my best friend and former lover slowly drifting away. Soon, I don't even think i'll know who you are anymore.

You used to tell me you'd love me no matter what, and that little things would be forgotten about. We both had our share of mistakes, like all relationships do, but when we were together, it was like nothing else mattered. I gave up so much to be with you, and to make our relationship work, and never once did I say " No, Arin. I don't want to be with you. " because of it.

I never once cared about giving up some of my bad habbits to be with you. All I cared about was making you happy.

That night you were at my house, and you said " All I ever wanted to do, was to love you. " Well. Look. How many times have I said that I love you only to be pushed away?

If you REALLY loved me as much as you say you did, I think you would of thought before you tossed our relationship out the window. I was with you when you were nothing, and honestly, I liked you better when you were still unemployed, and bumming rides from your mom and dad.

I guess your ego went to you head. Well. Thats okay, Arin. Because now that you have everything you want, I hope your happy when you sleep alone in your room at night.

Despite everything, I still, and always will love you with all my heart, no matter how much you stomp on me, kick me while i'm down, and make me feel like i'm nothing to you. You mean the world to me, and I will always be there for you when you call. I'm one of the one people you can truely rely on. And maybe one of the only people that will ever love you like this.

Stop and look at what you've become, what you've given up, and where your going. Maybe it's not too late, when you realize what you're doing.

To thy own self, be true.

Thanks for your comments. Much appreciated.

Finger Eleven - Temporary Arms

i burn and melt and stick and fade
your temporary arms invade
one of many last warnings
cannot wipe the conscience clean

the strain wears in you fault in me in again

cannot connect the smirking world
the poison flower comes uncurled
if i believe i'm dreaming

and if they find you lost again
what will you tell them then

collapsing in again you found what makes it sore
you triggered off the feelings that you felt before

i come crawling up again i need a friend
some one with me
no better feeling than escape avoid the feeling so you're

all the guilt pulls away if only forever

replace the name replace the fear
i can't come out but i want you here
i"m laughing now and then it floods
but not out loud

i feel you up and feel you down
i need your space i need it now
another circumstance has gone and shut you down
another fear awakened in the fault you found

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Your mom + Your mom = Your dad.

Dave Matthews Band - Let you down

I let you down
Let me pick you up
I let you down
Let me climb up you to the top
So I can see the view from up there
Tangled in your hair
I let you down
I have no lid upon my head
But if I did
You could look inside and see
What's on my mind
I let you down, oh, forgive me
You give me love
Let me walk with you, maybe I could say
Maybe talk with you, open up
And let me through
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
I have no lid upon my head
But if I did
You could look inside and see what's on my mind
You could look inside and see what's on my mind
I let you down
How could I be such a fool like me
I let you down
Tail between my legs
I'm a puppy for you love
I'm a puppy for you love
I have no lid upon my head
but if I did
you could look inside and see
what's on my mind , oh its you
I let you down
I'm a puppy for your love
I'm a puppy for your love
Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me
I let you down

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Your mom + Your mom = Your dad.

everyone seems to hate everyone esle here so i hate you all too.

YAY i am included


screw you.

Oh my god. You suck.

Hey dennis its rich... i moved, yay....